UPDATE!!

It has been way too long in between posts. There is no excuse, except for the fact that I have been trying to keep my sanity. Summer used to be what you looked forward to as a child, as a much needed break from school. Being a parent however puts summer in a whole new perspective.

 Don't get me wrong, I love my babies with all my heart but after getting used to a 2 1/2 hour break everyday, then it suddenly stopping, kind of takes a toll on me. Madden is such a wonderful child and I wouldn't trade him for anything, but I can tell that he is bored and I literally don't have the gumption to put my whole heart and soul into entertaining him or Lainey. I will be brutally honest and say that there are many times a day when I kind of tune the children out and have some mommy time.  I have ALWAYS fed myself breakfast first before my kids. Doesn't that make me sound awful?? Honestly though, I get super sick feeling if I don't eat as soon as I get up. I do at least get Lainey a bottle of milk and make Madden a cup of milk to tide them over. Frankly the bottle is the only thing Lainey wants anyway so she is happy as soon as it hits her mouth. Then there is Madden who is NEVER in any big rush to eat unless it is chips or cookies, so he for sure could care less when I get around to making him breakfast. The system has worked without fail, and I feel blessed that my kids are so adaptable to the ever changing atmosphere's around them. Things could always be a lot worse and I know that I have it sooooo much better than a lot of other mom's out there.

So with Summer coming to a close (HOORAY!) and Fall just around the corner, this is when I am at my happiest and most zen. School will be starting soon and I know how much Madden is looking forward to it. We went up to see Mrs. Greiner at the new school yesterday and Madden and Lainey had a great time exploring everything. So much so that Lainey balled when I made her leave. I have never felt sad about taking Madden to school, as most parents feel sad I feel like I am doing the best possible thing I could do for him. He gets so much out of school that he would not be getting with me as a teacher and I don't feel bad saying that because it's the truth.

I have to take Madden to his 4 year check up in a few days and I need to talk to his doctor about getting him to the ophthalmologist for his eye, and about him possibly being on the Autism spectrum. Depending on how the visit goes I will get a better idea if we want to stay with the pediatrician we already have or seek out a new one. I have never LOVED my pediatrician as so many other parents do. I kind of long for the relationship that so many others have with their child's doctor, so I am giving her one more chance to reel me in and then I am out.

So that is a quick update and I will try and keep this up better in the days to come. I need to remember to blog so that my children can use this as a reference later in life!